Every year, the energy of 11/11 carries a special vibration. You’ve probably seen 11:11 on the clock and felt a little cosmic nudge — as if the universe was whispering, pay attention. On November 11th, that energy expands into what many call the 11/11 Portal — a powerful moment to align with your higher self, release what’s holding you back, and step into the next version of your life with clarity and confidence.
What Is the 11/11 Portal?
In numerology, the number 11 is known as a Master Number — the frequency of intuition, awakening, and spiritual insight. When it doubles to 11/11, its power amplifies, creating an energetic gateway between your human self and your higher consciousness. Think of it as a vibrational doorway where your thoughts, feelings, and intentions are magnetized.
On this day, the universe asks you to pause. To reflect. To remember that you are not separate from the energy you wish to call in — you are that energy.
11/11 is often called a manifestation portal, but it’s really about alignment — not forcing outcomes, but tuning your frequency to match your desires.
The Astrology: Last Quarter Moon in Leo
This year’s 11/11 portal happens under a Last Quarter Moon in Leo — and that combination is both fiery and reflective.
The Last Quarter Moon is a time for release and recalibration. It’s when we look back on the lunar cycle and decide what’s ready to be completed or let go of before a new beginning. It’s an inward-turning phase that invites forgiveness, clarity, and closure.
Leo brings heart energy into the mix — self-expression, courage, and the authentic desire to be seen. But with the Moon waning, it’s less about being on stage and more about owning your light from within.
Together, this portal and moon phase say:
✨ Release what dims your light.
✨ Let go of old versions of yourself that crave approval.
✨ Reclaim your joy, your playfulness, your creativity.
✨ Release what dims your light.
✨ Let go of old versions of yourself that crave approval.
✨ Reclaim your joy, your playfulness, your creativity.
This isn’t a time for chasing — it’s a time for surrendering to the truth of who you are and allowing that truth to magnetize what’s next.
What You Should Know
The 11/11 portal is often portrayed as a wish-making day, but it’s deeper than that. It’s an energetic checkpoint that helps you align with your next chapter. Here’s what’s most important to remember:
💫 Awareness is the real activation. Your power comes from noticing what you think, feel, and believe — and consciously choosing thoughts that support your growth.
💫 Release is manifestation. With the Last Quarter Moon, clearing space is the ritual. You can’t receive new energy if your hands (or your heart) are full of old stories.
💫 Heart first, logic later. Leo reminds you that intuition and authenticity must lead the way. You don’t have to have it all figured out. You just have to be honest about what you love and who you are.
What You Can Do
If you want to work with the energy of the 11/11 portal, here are a few simple rituals and practices to help you connect:
1. Clear and Release
Grab a notebook or piece of paper and write down everything you’re ready to let go of — fears, doubts, outdated goals, self-criticism, people-pleasing. Burn or tear the paper as a symbolic act of release.
2. Set a Heart-Aligned Intention
Leo energy invites you to create from the heart. Write one powerful “I am” statement that reflects the version of you you’re ready to embody.
Examples:
Examples:
- I am boldly shining my authentic light.
- I am attracting opportunities that align with my purpose.
- I am living with ease, creativity, and confidence.
If you have aphantasia (like me), you don’t have to visualize it — feel it instead. Tune into the sensation of that version of you: the confidence in your body, the warmth in your heart, the peace in your mind.
3. Take Aligned Action
Manifestation is movement. Ask yourself, what one small action can I take today that brings this intention closer to life? Then do it. Trust that even the smallest step is a declaration of faith.
4. Anchor the Energy
At 11:11 AM or 11:11 PM, take a few deep breaths, place your hand on your heart, and say your intention aloud. Imagine the energy rippling outward, aligning you with every experience that matches your truth.
Light a candle in your favorite color (maybe that beautiful Deep Violet that’s part of my brand palette 💜) to represent your soul’s fire.
What the 11/11 Portal Means for You
This 11/11 is your reminder that growth doesn’t always come from doing more — sometimes it comes from letting go, trusting more deeply, and stepping boldly into visibility.
If you’ve been holding yourself back from sharing your gifts or doubting your path, this portal whispers: It’s time.
Let Leo’s fire reignite your confidence. Let the Moon’s wisdom show you what needs to be released. Let the energy of 11/11 remind you that alignment, not effort, is what brings your manifestations to life.
The portal is open. Step through with courage, love, and heart.
Today, while posting my most recent blog across social media, I took a few moments to scroll. And what I saw honestly blew me away.
Post after post promised “abundance,” “good fortune,” or “miracles coming your way.” And below each one were hundreds — sometimes thousands — of comments filled with “I claim it!” or “So it is!”
Don’t get me wrong, I love a good manifestation vibe. But this realization hit me hard:
We have faith that liking a post or typing “I claim it” will change our lives…
but we don’t have that same faith in ourselves.
but we don’t have that same faith in ourselves.
We’re putting our belief outside of us — in algorithms, in luck, in someone else’s message — instead of placing it where it truly belongs: inside.
The truth is:
You don’t need to comment “I claim it.”
You don’t need to wait for the universe to notice your like.
You simply need to remember your power — and activate it intentionally.
You don’t need to wait for the universe to notice your like.
You simply need to remember your power — and activate it intentionally.
So if you’ve caught yourself recently “claiming” your blessings during a late-night scroll, don’t feel bad. We all crave connection, hope, and a little magic. But here’s your gentle wake-up call: it’s time to stop claiming and start creating.
How to Step Into Your Power (No Likes Necessary)
Here are five steps to help you shift from passive “claiming” to active creating — and start manifesting real change from within.
1. Pause the Scroll
The next time you feel that impulse to “claim it,” take a deep breath instead.
Ask yourself: What is this post really awakening in me?
Is it desire, hope, envy, longing? Whatever it is, it’s showing you where your soul is ready to grow.
Ask yourself: What is this post really awakening in me?
Is it desire, hope, envy, longing? Whatever it is, it’s showing you where your soul is ready to grow.
2. Name What You Truly Want
Don’t just claim what someone else posts. Get specific about your dream.
What does abundance, love, or peace look like for you?
Write it down. The moment you define it, you begin to give it form — that’s where creation starts.
What does abundance, love, or peace look like for you?
Write it down. The moment you define it, you begin to give it form — that’s where creation starts.
3. Believe in Your Own Power
Instead of saying “I claim it,” try saying:
“I create it. I am capable. I am ready.”
This tiny shift in language moves you from wishful thinking to energetic alignment. You’re no longer waiting — you’re participating.
This tiny shift in language moves you from wishful thinking to energetic alignment. You’re no longer waiting — you’re participating.
4. Take One Aligned Action
Manifestation is momentum. Do one small thing today that supports your intention.
If you’re claiming abundance, look at your finances with clarity.
If you’re claiming love, show love — to yourself or someone else.
If you’re claiming peace, create a moment of quiet.
Every action says to the Universe, “I’m serious about this.”
If you’re claiming abundance, look at your finances with clarity.
If you’re claiming love, show love — to yourself or someone else.
If you’re claiming peace, create a moment of quiet.
Every action says to the Universe, “I’m serious about this.”
5. Trust the Timing, but Keep Moving
Trust doesn’t mean sitting still — it means moving in faith.
When you keep showing up with consistency and self-belief, the universe meets you halfway. Your “claim” becomes your creation because your energy, thoughts, and actions are aligned.
When you keep showing up with consistency and self-belief, the universe meets you halfway. Your “claim” becomes your creation because your energy, thoughts, and actions are aligned.
Final Thoughts
You don’t need to chase every post that promises blessings.
You are the blessing.
You are the blessing.
So the next time you see one of those “Claim it!” posts, take it as a reminder — not to type in the comments, but to tune in to your own magic.
Because the real power to change your life isn’t found in your feed…
It’s found in you.
As I write this, I’m on my way to Pilates — a little frustrated, because I like to be 15 minutes early and I’m only going to be six minutes early today.
Why? Because I didn’t leave my house when I should have.
It’s not like I was doing nothing — I was finishing up things around the house, being “productive.” (Okay… I might’ve been slacking off a little before that.) But still, I left later than I intended.
Now that I’m on the road, I’m hitting every single red light. I’m stuck behind slow drivers. I’m waiting for someone to make a left-hand turn. And all of it is testing my patience.
In that moment, I reminded myself:
“I’ll get to Pilates at the exact time I’m meant to get there. The Universe knows what it’s doing.”
And while that’s true, it doesn’t change the fact that I am the one who left the house late.
That’s the dance we’re all trying to learn — the balance between trusting the Universe’s perfect timing and taking personal responsibility for our part in the process.
Yes, the Universe is magical in its synchronicities, divine timing, and perfect orchestration. But that doesn’t mean we get to sit back and wait for things to happen. Manifestation isn’t passive.
Your actions, your mindset, and your energy are what tell the Universe what you truly want.
Not just your affirmations.
Not just your vision board.
Not just your affirmations.
Not just your vision board.
So ask yourself:
Are your affirmations, your vision boards, your thoughts, and your actions all in alignment with what you say you want?
Or are you telling the Universe one thing while acting as if you want something else?
Or are you telling the Universe one thing while acting as if you want something else?
Because if you’re asking for abundance but acting out of scarcity…
If you’re affirming love but closing yourself off emotionally…
If you’re visualizing success but procrastinating on the steps that would create it…
Then your energy is sending mixed messages.
If you’re visualizing success but procrastinating on the steps that would create it…
Then your energy is sending mixed messages.
Check your actions at the door.
Play an active role in your own manifestations.
And then — once you’ve done your part — trust the Universe’s timing.
And then — once you’ve done your part — trust the Universe’s timing.
Manifestation isn’t about forcing outcomes or creating something out of nothing. It’s about raising your vibration to match the frequency of what you desire.
Your vibration — the combination of your thoughts, your emotions, and your actions — is what the Universe listens to when it orchestrates your path.
So today, take responsibility for your energy. Move with intention.
And know that once you’re in alignment, the Universe will handle the timing.
And know that once you’re in alignment, the Universe will handle the timing.
Fifty. The Big 5-0. Holy Smokes! I can hardly believe I’m writing this—but here I am, staring down this monumental milestone with excitement, a little nostalgia, and a whole lot of anticipation for what’s ahead.
In 76 days, I’ll be stepping into my 50s—a new decade, a fresh chapter, the second half of my life. And rather than seeing it as something to dread, I’m choosing to see it as a doorway. A threshold. A moment where I can look back at everything I’ve experienced, learned, and accomplished—and then boldly declare that the best is yet to come.
Looking Back with Gratitude
As I reflect on the first 50 years of my life, I can’t help but feel a deep sense of gratitude. Life hasn’t been perfect—far from it—but it’s been rich, colorful, messy, beautiful, and deeply meaningful.
I’ve loved, I’ve lost, I’ve grown, I’ve struggled, I’ve laughed until my sides hurt, and I’ve cried tears that reminded me just how much I care. I’ve reinvented myself more times than I can count, and each time, I’ve discovered more strength, more wisdom, and more resilience than I thought possible.
Every scar tells a story. Every triumph reminds me of my power. Every mistake shaped the person I’ve become.
And now, standing here at the edge of this new decade, I see it all with softer eyes. Not judgment. Not regret. Just appreciation for the journey.
The Best Is Yet to Come
Here’s the thing: I know in my bones that turning 50 isn’t an ending—it’s a beginning. It’s the start of the most powerful, purposeful, joy-filled chapter of my life.
There’s a freedom that comes with reaching this age. A freedom from worrying so much about what people think. A freedom to live life on my own terms. A freedom to put myself first, unapologetically, and to chase after the dreams that are still burning inside me.
The best is not behind me—it’s ahead of me.
76 Days of Preparation
That’s where this countdown comes in. I’ve got 76 days to prepare—not just for a party or a birthday candle blowout, but for a full mind-body-soul reset.
I want to step into my 50s with my physical, mental, spiritual, and financial health stronger than ever. That means:
- Physical: Moving my body in ways that bring me energy and joy. Nourishing myself with food that feels good. Prioritizing rest and recovery so I feel vibrant when the big day arrives.
- Mental: Reflecting on my journey so far, setting fresh goals, and nurturing my curiosity. I want my mind sharp, resilient, and open to new adventures.
- Spiritual: Deepening my connection to my inner self, my values, and the divine. Cultivating gratitude and presence as I step into this new era.
- Financial: Getting grounded, intentional, and abundant in how I manage my resources—because security and freedom go hand in hand.
This isn’t about perfection. It’s about intention. About stepping into my 50s with a strong foundation and a clear vision of the kind of woman I’m becoming.
A Celebration of Life
So yes, I’ll be celebrating BIG when the day arrives. But more than balloons and cake, this milestone is about celebrating life itself. It’s about honoring the path that brought me here and stepping boldly into the one that lies ahead.
Fifty is not something to fear—it’s something to embrace with open arms and a full heart.
76 days to go. Let’s do this.
Have you ever had one of those days—maybe weeks—where your mind feels fuzzy, your thoughts are scattered, and you're just… not all there? You might chalk it up to lack of sleep, hormones, or too much screen time. And while those are valid contributors, there’s another deeper, often overlooked reason for brain fog: spiritual growth.
In this blog post, we'll explore what brain fog really is, why it may arise during periods of spiritual transformation, and what to do when the fog rolls in.
What Is Brain Fog?
Brain fog isn't a medical diagnosis, but it’s a very real experience. It's characterized by:
- Mental fatigue
- Difficulty concentrating
- Forgetfulness
- Confusion or disorientation
- A general feeling of being “off”
It’s as though your brain is trying to boot up, but someone spilled molasses on the hard drive. You’re trying to access clarity, creativity, and drive—but everything feels distant, like it's behind a thick veil.
The Spiritual Connection: Why Fog Often Follows Growth
Brain fog is often a symptom of energetic integration. When you're moving through a spiritual awakening, expanding your consciousness, or letting go of old identities and limiting beliefs, your energetic system goes through a sort of “upgrade.” And just like any software update, your system might slow down while it's installing.
Here’s how brain fog ties into spiritual growth:
1. Energetic Detox
Letting go of outdated beliefs and emotional patterns releases stagnant energy. But just like a physical detox, this can cause temporary discomfort, confusion, or fogginess as your system recalibrates.
2. Third Eye Recalibration
The third eye chakra governs intuition and mental clarity. As this center awakens, your usual ways of thinking may shut down to make room for new intuitive pathways. What feels like mental fog may actually be your brain stepping aside to let your intuition lead.
3. Liminal Space = Confusion
Growth doesn’t happen in neat, clean steps. There's a middle zone between who you were and who you are becoming. Brain fog often shows up in this in-between space—where you’ve outgrown the old but haven’t yet anchored into the new.
What to Do When the Fog Rolls In
Instead of resisting brain fog, treat it as sacred pause. Here are some ways to work with it:
✦ 1. Slow Down and Listen
Brain fog can be your soul’s way of saying “rest.” Stop pushing. Get quiet. Journal. Nap. Stretch. Let your body and energy system catch up.
✨ Journal Prompt:
“What am I letting go of right now, and what might be coming into my life in its place?”
“What am I letting go of right now, and what might be coming into my life in its place?”
✦ 2. Ground Your Energy
Spiritual growth often lifts us into high-frequency states, which can make us feel ungrounded. Counter this by:
- Walking barefoot in grass
- Eating warm, earthy foods
- Practicing gentle yoga or breathwork
- Using grounding crystals like hematite or black tourmaline
✦ 3. Hydrate and Nourish Your Brain
Brain fog isn’t just spiritual—it’s also physical. Support your body with hydration, Omega-3s, leafy greens, and B-vitamins. Your soul's evolution still needs a well-fed brain to function.
✦ 4. Set Spiritual Boundaries
Sometimes brain fog is the result of energetic overload. If you’re empathic or sensitive, check in: Are you carrying someone else’s energy? Cleanse your field with sage, sound bowls, or an energetic cord-cutting ritual.
✦ 5. Trust the Reboot
Fog is often followed by deep clarity. Your higher self knows what it’s doing. Let the mind rest while the spirit upgrades.
A Final Word: Brain Fog Is Not a Failure
It’s easy to feel frustrated, especially if you're used to being productive and clear. But what if this fog isn't a failure—what if it’s a feminine invitation to stop doing and start being? To receive? To allow?
Spiritual growth isn’t linear, and your body-mind-spirit system is incredibly wise. Trust that what looks like confusion is part of your transformation.
Ready to Clear the Fog?
✨ If you're in a foggy spiritual growth phase and want support, book a session with me or check out my CBAR Manifestation Workbook designed specifically for people with aphantasia and unique processing styles. You don’t have to navigate this journey alone.
🌀 And if this blog resonated, share it with a soul sister (or brother) who might need to hear that their fog is sacred too.
With love and clarity (even in the fog),
Colleen
